Disclaimer: This is a very sensitive topic on suicide and mental illness. I do not mean to offend, hurt, accuse or trigger anything with anyone.
This past year, my surrounding communities has suffered an alarming rise in suicides. We have been hit hard with unexpected death through car accidents…young people, families, individuals taken. There’s so much suffering, pain, holes ripped open that hope seems lost.
I’ve said many times this past year that to feel that NO ONE, absolutely no one, and your life is worth nothing, means nothing is such a lie from the devil.
The pain is so enormous that they are the only things they see & feel. They can’t see those around them who will suffer in their absence. We, Christians, have failed when we don’t live for and reflect Christ in such a way that His love and hope are on display for all to see and want to know what the difference is.
I have had many sufferings in my life but the pull of life and Jesus were strong for me to go through it. I know it’s hard. I do not know the pain, terror, hurt and misunderstanding of mental illness and that struggle. I know many that do suffer with it though.
I do not say that He will remove this from you, but He can if it is in His will to do so. There is hope. There is a place for you.
You are not alone.
Below is one of my devotions today that made me feel the need to write about this. Being a Living Sacrifice Not a Cutting Sacrifice By Savannah Parvu
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is —his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:1-2 NIV For many years I found myself knee deep in an addiction. The addiction I had wasn’t the normal kind because it involved pain and self-mutilation. I began a journey of cutting myself. Have you ever found yourself so overwhelmed with life that you were willing to sacrifice everything? In Romans 12:1-2 we read that we are to offer our body as a living sacrifice.
What is a living sacrifice… and not just a cutting sacrifice?
In the Old Testament, when sacrifices were made, something had to die. There had to be shedding of blood. Being a cutter, I tried to make it okay because rather than killing an animal I could just cut myself and have the shedding of blood. I would lie to myself and say “I’m not harming others.”
What I did not understand though, was… that when Jesus died on the cross His blood was shed for ME. The fact that we are to offer our bodies as a living sacrifice means that God is enough.
He is enough when I’m not.
How do I begin to be a living sacrifice?
Galatians 2:20 shows us the way. It says, I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.
I always thought it must be so complicated to be a living sacrifice, but it’s not. He wants us to give our lives to Him and follow His ways. Romans 12:2 goes on to say that we are not to conform to the patterns of this world, BUT be transformed by the renewing of our minds.
To be a living sacrifice, we must transform our thinking and begin to walk and talk a whole new way. When those thoughts begin to invade our minds and lie to us saying,
Nobody loves me! That’s not true the Lord loves you.
I am worthless! No! Christ died for you.
Are you living your life in sacrifice to God or to yourself? What are some of the things that you tell yourself? Are you telling yourself things that are true?
When those thoughts take over I encourage you to set your eyes on God. Will you begin to look at the way God sees you? Will you begin to realize that HE has already made the sacrifice and by simply giving your heart to Him and daily walking in His truth you become a living sacrifice?
Today ask yourself this question, just like I had to ask myself… Was Christ’s sacrifice enough or do I think I need to fill in the hole with my own sacrifice?
Father, I am thankful that You have created us to be a living sacrifice for You. Help us to put to death our earthly desires and set our eyes on You. Remind us daily that You ARE enough, and we do not need the things of the world. Let us keep our eyes fixed on You. Amen